So this is a first for me and encouraged by the bestie {{ILY}}...Im always writing but I never share it with anyone because
I hate rejection and to be honest what I write is a part of my soul and I really dont want people all up and playing Dr Phil to me...
My life is my life Love it or Hate Im the one that wakes up and lives it daily and I wouldnt change it for anything
But rite now im living on this roller coaster called life and to be honest Im tired of this ride...I feel like Im wasting my potential and Im seeing the light lately. Fear not Im not going all bible thumping on ppl but truly in my life I been thru to much seen to much witnessed to much and did too much. And Im realizing that we all live in this he said she said they said I said world and that we bring each other down. As ppl we hate to see the next person making it so we hate on each other and we bring them down to our level instead of congratulating. Im guilty of this myself we all see our lives in a certain why and unfortunately most of us get sidetracked and become bitter. For some of us the road is easy and we luck out but for many of us its rough with lots of detours that we never navigate correctly. Im rambling now but what Im trying to say in a nutshell is....
Live for yourself no one is going to do it for you if you want to do something DO IT dont worry about what the next person will think if we continue to live our lives for other people we will never find happiness within ourselves. Stop hating on the next person cause they had to do the balls to do what you wont do.
But heres the latest piece enjoy and thank you for visiting my world for a moment
Caught in life cyclone
Being spun round and round
losing myself in this game called life
trying to crave my space in this world
but another obstacle another day
have many enemies
but my number one is me
DOUBTS FEARS and INSECURITIES
Am I good enough? Will I ever make it out?
Who am I in this life?
Losing myself in this chaos
living the life of the latest lifetime movies
drama at every turn
whispers to the right
on the left another fight
god throwing me signs
but my tunnel vision is on
there’s no getting to me
Another Fight Another Arrest
A new court date Damn a death
is this my life?
is this what god intended for me?
How many of us must fail?
How many do we gotta lose?
Till we see what god is intending us to see
Intelligence wasted
Dreams Shattered
Tears falling
Hearts breaking
Mind spinning
back breaking
What does this life want from me???
Good girl gone bad is what they mite call me
another statistic
wasted American youth
Why isn’t anyone trying to change it
Fear is victorious
Cause I’m my own worst enemy
TO scared to change to scared to step away from what I know
Fear of rejection got me running backwards
Clocks ticking
The way out is clearly in front of me
But scared to blaze the trail to enter the unknown
Scared to let you know the real me
Dumb myself down talk the talk walk the walk
Life on the line
Denying my own self wealth
When will I learn?
When will I prove them all wrong?
When will I see?
But my doubts fears and insecurities got their hold on me
Maybe tomorrow Ill let you see the real me....
